eyeliner;;

i got 3 new eyeliners from hot topic!
purple;green;red!
i'm wearing purple and green right now:p
i wanna do "it" right now;;
wow! haha.
i;m boreded.'
let's do it!
me and you;;right now~

i'm so bored:p

hello!
i'm hanging wit cody scogins.
listening to stanky leg....lol.
so yea;;i hate 13 packets of ketchup by itself;;
eww. but i dont care;;i did for these hot dudes at the mall;;lol~
:p
i feel like talking to gavin;;but i dont wanna;;
i'm wanna thump that boyy in the back of the head!
ugh.i dont get that boy;;
ttyl):

my life;;

why why why?!?!

why does this always happen to me?

okay,,screw him.

whatever! alright...

i like called him and he was

like, "Hello?" and i was like,

"Hey! What's up?" and he was like,

"What do you want?" and i was like,

"Just wanting to know what you were doing...

are you OK?" and he was like, "Whatever,fuck you." and hung up.

wtf was that for? i'm pissed at him;;and the

other thing is;;i could hear his girlfriend in the background. haha;;i bet she was telling him to say that;;she's a hater! i love my haters;;they make me famous! haha;;but he hurt my feelings;;so i don't know if i'm gonna talk to him right now. i'm a VERY sensitive person;;i cry over dead flies. yea;;wow! but i don't care if you think i'm dramatic or a cry-baby;;i'm not;;just VERY emotional;; and yes;;i am EMO;; and i don't care if you think i'm a freak or whatever;;i'm just going through a VERY hard time in my life;;right now;;i could kill myself if i wanted;;but i choose not to;;no..i do NOT worship the devil;;i'm a christian;;jesus has my heart and he will forver and eternity;;i have 6 sisters and 1 brother;;i'm the oldest;;and the most expected to do bad stuff;;because of the way i dress;;i guess my mom thinks i'm a bad kid because she doesn't like ANY of my friends because they hace piercings in their face;;or visable tattoos;;but whatever;;she doesn't know them like i do;;and they are great people;;my parents are divorced and they both talk shit about one another to me;;it drives me crazy;;i hate it;;everything is a lie that comes out of their mouths;;i hate it that they can't get along atleast for ME. but that's alright;;i guess so;; i am abused;;verbally,and physically;;physically mostly from my dad and verbally from my mom;;she calls me worthless,dumbass,stupid,bitch,emo kid,razor,cutter,and lots more;;my dad beats me over the stupidest of crap;;even if he THINKS i'm being mean to one of my sisters;;he beats me really hard;;i can't stop it until i can move out;;when im 18;;if i can. but i am really scared,jumpy,depressed now-a-days.my friends worry about me all the time;;i practically live in my bedroom;;if i even come out;;all that shit happens and i can't take it any longer! i wish i was never brought into this world;;i don't have a purpose here;;i'm worthless;;i'm just taking up space and breathing other people's air;;even some of my teachers treat me different because of the way i dress and look;;discrimination?;;uhh...yea;; i cry atleast 13 times a day;;i'm not playing around either;;i wake up and start crying because of my mom;;and i fall asleep crying;;i really hate this world;;i wish i could go to Heaven and spend the rest of my time with My Savior;;i see Jesus every day;;and talk to him;;my mom thinks i'm crazy because she doesn't see him and i guess it looks like i'm talking to air;;but i'm not;;call my whatever you want but it's not true;;i am me and nobody can change that;;and the messed up thing is,my other sister,she's a prep and my mom LOVES her. she gets here anything she wants;;it's screwed up;;i do all the cleaning and occiasionly the cooking and all my sister does is sit on her lazy ass on the computer and gets fucking fat;;the only really person on my mom's side of the family who doesn't really treat me that bad is my step-dad;;he's pretty cool;;but as i was saying about my sister;;she and my mom orders me around like a slave;;i know you guys are thinking, "Wow,she's feeling sorry for herself. That's selfish." well,i have a right to if you haven't noticed;;but i know alot of people have it worse than i do;;so i try to suck it up;;but i'd rather live in a cardborad box and have cancer or something than be in this situation i am in right now;;that's sad, huh?but it's the truth;;i deeply,truely hate my life;;all i have that makes me better is my music and skateboard;;when i skate;;it's like i forget about everything that's going on and just focus on this trick or something;;when i listen to my music, i get lost in it;;it makes me think of good stuff;;even if it's screamo;;which i only listen to most if the time;; :D ;;i absolutely love my board and my music;;

also;;my friends;;when i'm with them;;i'm totally different;;i'm myself;; not who i am at home when they see me;; i'm fun and hyper;;and i like that feeling of happiness;;it's better than the feeling of depression or sadness or hate;;but i get scared really easy when i;m with either my mom or dad;;i;m always distarcted by little things;;i sweat;;i breathe heavily;;one time i even passed out;;last year;;i didn't get anything for Christmas from my parents;;they literally hate me;;i just know it;;that's why i cut myself;;i have so many scars it's not even funny;;i almost got my main artery once;;but i was lucky and didn't;;you know that song by Hawthorne Heights-Ohio is for Lovers? well,that part in the chorus when they say, "So Cut My Wrists and Balck My Eyes,so i can fall asleep tonight,or Die." ;;yea,i wish i was that lucky;;sometimes i just want to fall asleep and never wake up;;i've ran away about three times;;attempted suicide twice;;gun shot and over-dose;;but i couldn't do the gun thing but i did over-dose and go out in the hospital for...i don't know how long but it was long enough;;

but i'm gonna go;;and quit complaing;;ttyl!

shut up;;

today is like my last day at my middle school;;

because i'm moving after christmas break;;

and these,umm...DING HOLES at school were HAPPY i am gone;;

they nees to go to the underworld for rats;;

oh,oh,OH! listen to this... today,in math class,my math teacher,Mrs.Krobot,

decided since today was our last day before christmas break, we'd have fun. so today,

we did this thingy majijer and its really fun listen...

i am going on a trip to...Madison World

and i am going to take a baseball bat

and a lady rat

because that's a rockin' mixture!

You write down random stuff and go around the class and say one

line,,its hilarious!

like one time today, these four boys Lincoln,Jake,Tanner,and Cody

were going to do it and this is how it went...

"I am going to take a trip to...my room.

And i am going to take a...digital camera.

And a...Hooters girl.

Because i have some "unfinished" business to take care of."

=o! you should of SAW mrs.k....she was on the

flooring crying her eyes out!!!

it was hilarious...

haha.

that's insanium in the cranium dawg!

GAWRSH!!!!

i'll blog later...

DUECES(:

i'm a mystery;;waiting to be solved;;

so yea;;
i went to fucking school todayy;;
it was horrible like every other day;;
health class;;we had a test;;i dont think i made a 100/
damnit! ;x
mayybe a 90 or something;;i know,i know.
i bet you're like,"Dude,wtf? She's complaining about a 90!"
no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no
no,no,no,no. That's NOT what i'm saying!
i just need the higher grades for that stinkin' class;
i hate it;;health class is so flippin' retarded!
[excuse my language]

i'm a puzzle;complete me

<

side of my lipp;;is lipstick;;zombie like..huh?

yea so this is very important..;

i'm in love with a guy i can't have;;

he's one of my bestest friends;;

he has a slutty,trashy,repulsive,disgusting girlfriend.

i don't know how he lives with that girl.;; i truely don't know.but yea;;i also like oli sykes and alex evan =O! but i can't have them either;;same thing with casey calvert;;he died! :'(well;;that ONE dewd is hardcore;;"you cannot decode my thoughts;"

i guess im repulsive;;am i?? all my friends say i'm gorgeous;;but idk about that. oh yea...do i look 13? well,i am! and in the 7th grade;; but i've dated a 19 year old before;;[shh!don't tell my mommy(;!!]

i'm going to type "Sex Ed" By: Smosh... ENJOYY!

There comes a time in every mans lifewhen he grows hair where it used to be bareI know you're feeling weird, but you should be happyYou don't have a vagina, that would be crappyBecause periods suck (and commas rule!)This is Sex Education, not grammar, fool!Chorus:When she gives you affection, you better wear protectionThat skank might have an infection, are you paying close attention?In Sex Ed, remember what you readJust forget what the others have saidget it through your head, use your brain before you go to bedAnd it takes only one sperm cell to make a baby,And if you think they are cute, then you must be crazyBabies suck because they barf and poo and cryThey have the ability to pee in your eye(OH MY GOD IT BURNS!)And did we mentionThe risk of getting STDsNot just gross hookers have itEven Dennis Rodman could get a bitYou don't know who Dennis Rodman is?Well maybe you should watch more basketballWait a second this is not about sportsQuick fact! You can't get girls when you're wearing these shortsChorus:When she gives you affection, you better wear protectionThat skank might have an infection, are you paying close attention?In Sex Ed, remember what you readJust forget what the others have saidget it through your head, use your brain before you go to bedYour body is growingYou will get hairyYour puny voice will start to changeAnd your no-no place will feel a bit strangeYour pits will stinkYou'll get zits on your faceWithout this knowledge you will scare girls awaySo listen to this song every day.

funny;;;huh? okay;;back to the subject;; now i cant trust hiim;;so screw him!! i need a new love...how about you?

-madison&&hardcoreness;;<3

hii! i'm madison;

8 random facts:

1)i NEVER wear white socks.

2)i like strawberry milkshake pop-tarts.

3)i hate preppy people.

4)i'm nicknamed the princess of darkness

5)i can play the bass.

6)i like zombies;;they're pretty sweet.

7)i absolutely love vampires;;they're hardcore.

8)i like semicolons;;

yea,,,i have hardcoreness;; :p

if you don't like me;;get over it;;i love my haters!!

myy life is okk;;i guess

i'm single right now;;in that case.

my friends are the awesomest;;of course''

i'm a pretty out-going;;goofy;;hardcore;;in-yo-face;;person.

i like to have lots of unn;;so don't ruin it for me!

my favorite bands::

hawthorne heights

3OH!3

forever the sickest kids

the devil wears prada

underoath

paramore

chevelle

streetlight manifesto

my chemical romance

boys like girls

bring me to the horizon

bullet for my valentine

calvary kids

green day

all american rejects

fountains of wayne

linkin park

tokio hotel

metro station

nevershoutnever!

papa roach

HIM

saving abel

avenged sevenfold

slipknot

the offspring

the red jumpsuit apparatus

good charlotte

yea;;there's alot more.haha;

i'll blog later...

ttyl-

-maddy;<3